Just left of normal

There are so many things I could say right now, that I know wouldn't make anything better.

I remember when I met you playing Scions of Fate. Back in Early August or late July of last year. Back then I was working 24/7, partying and getting into trouble.

After I met you, all I wanted to do was play SoF. Why ? Well to be honest I didn't know either. Now I realize.. just how much you mean to me. I played SoF because I really enjoyed playing it with you. It took me a while to realize that you were coming on to me though.

We had good times, we met so many funny and fun people. We eventually got together in October, calling each other almost everyday till now. Never have I ever felt so attached to someone before I met you.

Eventually we stayed together till this very day ( 9 months now ). I know we've had are share of arguments, I also know I was probably responsible for most of them. Each day that passes , we learned something new about each other.

Sometimes things would become hard for you and I wouldn't understand. So I disregarded your feelings and pursued being an asshole to you about it.

I regret it... I really do. Then we got into this argument one time and you cried. After you hang-up on me I ... didn't know what to do. I couldn't bare the thought of making you cry. So I left and went to the beach and had a few drinks with some friends and of course talked about it.

I love you Sarah I really do, I also know something now that I probably didn't realize until now. That we're different, we look at things differently and you try and change just to make me happy. I know I've been so selfish lately and I'm sorry, I don't know what I'd do if I lost you.

I know you have it tough, living with your parents and raising a baby on your own.

You have it a lot harder than I do now. Soon I will be done here and will be able to move up there with you.

When we last spoke I said that we shouldn't talk tell Friday just to see how things go.

I find myself reaching for my phone just to call you back.

I love you Sarah.